I got a BFP! How the hell did that happen? I wasn't on ivf meds, didn't have egg collection, no transfer... you mean I got pregnant by having sex?? Bloody hell, who would have thunk it!!
We were in our 2nd last cycle before going back to ivf. Saw my lovely naturopath around 7DPO and we knew we had one more shot at it before ivf. So, waiting, waiting for AF to arrive so we can get started and she never shows! I waited until 18DPO before testing and there it was...a big dark pink test line staring back at me. By that stage I knew deep down I was pregnant. I had spotting at 9dpo (implantation I'm guessing) and by 13DPO (I have a 11 day luteal phase) was experience nausea which was keeping me awake at night. It took me a while to work up to doing the test. I've been to my GP and had a dating scan. The scan didn't show much, just a small black thing in my uterus. I'm only just over 5 weeks so I guess I can't expect to see much at this point.
The worrying has already started. The nausea has calmed down and I just get a bit of cramping every now and then.
I'm going to need a straight jacket very soon.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Limbo land
I have been offline for close to a month and it was hard!! I came out in a rash within hours of us losing our connection. I was losing sleep, checking the post box obsessively every day for our new modem and start up pack from our new provider. It wasn't good. After a week though I suddenly reaslised, I had read a book from start to finish and almost knitted a scarf. I even baked!! I made a point of not pointing it out to A. He probably would have had it disconnected permanently with all the little things I achieved in such a short space of time. As much as I missed it, it was great to get away from conception/ivf forums and to be so obsessed with where everyone is in their cycle. For the moment I have a better balance. I lived without the net for nearly a month, I can do anything now!
As for our cycle...it's still not happening. We have put it off until September. Those terrible herbs I am taking have been working by making me ovulate earlier so we are giving it a bit longer. If we dont get that miracle with the naturopath in the next couple of months, we'll definitely going back for ivf before the end of the year. Have to take advantage of that medicare safety net.
So, I'm still taking the herbs twice per day, and now I am on these horse tablets for my thyroid. Two, morning and night. They taste almost as bad as the herbs. After 2 months of these herbs and tablets, I'll be capable of anything
As for our cycle...it's still not happening. We have put it off until September. Those terrible herbs I am taking have been working by making me ovulate earlier so we are giving it a bit longer. If we dont get that miracle with the naturopath in the next couple of months, we'll definitely going back for ivf before the end of the year. Have to take advantage of that medicare safety net.
So, I'm still taking the herbs twice per day, and now I am on these horse tablets for my thyroid. Two, morning and night. They taste almost as bad as the herbs. After 2 months of these herbs and tablets, I'll be capable of anything
Friday, June 13, 2008
Honey, are you hormonal?
That's what my lovely husband (Mr A) asked me a couple of nights ago. After more than 3 years TTC, you would have thought he would know better. If there was a sharp object within reach, he could have been in serious trouble.
Had a visit from AF late on Wednesday night. It was a bit more painful than usual and I was having a woe is me moment. Then the tears started, and I was going on and on about not wanting to go through more IVF blah blah blah. I was having a bad night. Then I get a "honey, are you hormonal?" WTF? Does he not value his life?
I've been feeling a bit ordinary since. Really emotional. I feel like I have had enough of this assisted conception thing and I want to get on with my life. Work is giving me the shits and I want to find a new job. But how can I when I need time off for IVF? A new employer wouldn't appreciate me having days off at a time when I have egg collection, or having to duck out for other random appointments. Why do I worry about how this will effect everyone else but myself? Maybe I should just do what I have to do in order to keep myself happy and bugger everyone else.
I will probably be ok again in a couple of days. I just need to suck it up and get on with it. Stim #4 in July. I have to do it. I can't put it off any longer.
Oh, and the herbs still suck!!
Had a visit from AF late on Wednesday night. It was a bit more painful than usual and I was having a woe is me moment. Then the tears started, and I was going on and on about not wanting to go through more IVF blah blah blah. I was having a bad night. Then I get a "honey, are you hormonal?" WTF? Does he not value his life?
I've been feeling a bit ordinary since. Really emotional. I feel like I have had enough of this assisted conception thing and I want to get on with my life. Work is giving me the shits and I want to find a new job. But how can I when I need time off for IVF? A new employer wouldn't appreciate me having days off at a time when I have egg collection, or having to duck out for other random appointments. Why do I worry about how this will effect everyone else but myself? Maybe I should just do what I have to do in order to keep myself happy and bugger everyone else.
I will probably be ok again in a couple of days. I just need to suck it up and get on with it. Stim #4 in July. I have to do it. I can't put it off any longer.
Oh, and the herbs still suck!!
Monday, June 9, 2008
Herbs
As I mentioned in my last post, I have been seeing a naturopath for a couple of months.
She has had me make a few dietary changes. Nothing major, just more regular snacking, more protein, more substantial breakfast and some vitamins. Well she has given me something new.
I had an appointment with her on Saturday and she has prescribed me some liquid herbs. My charting that I have been doing for her shows that I dont ovulate until at least day 19. She's not happy with this and thinks it's too late and wants to bring it forward a bit. This is where the herbs come in - they're supposed to help in that area.
She told me they taste like boiled up car tyres. Well, she was wrong!! They taste so much worse. I only have to have 75ml which sounds like nothing. I follow it with a chaser of pineapple juice but it still takes half an hour to get rid of the taste. It's disgusting.
Today I am on CD 33 and 13DPO. I only know this because I am charting for my naturopath. I charted for the first 2 years we were TTC and my luteal phase was 10-11 days. I'm excited to be at 13DPO. Either what the naturopath has me doing is actually helping things, or I'm pregnant!! HA! I don't even have pee sticks in the house as I refuse to waste my money anymore. For someone who has always been concerned about luteal phase length, it's exciting to get to 13DPO!
She has had me make a few dietary changes. Nothing major, just more regular snacking, more protein, more substantial breakfast and some vitamins. Well she has given me something new.
I had an appointment with her on Saturday and she has prescribed me some liquid herbs. My charting that I have been doing for her shows that I dont ovulate until at least day 19. She's not happy with this and thinks it's too late and wants to bring it forward a bit. This is where the herbs come in - they're supposed to help in that area.
She told me they taste like boiled up car tyres. Well, she was wrong!! They taste so much worse. I only have to have 75ml which sounds like nothing. I follow it with a chaser of pineapple juice but it still takes half an hour to get rid of the taste. It's disgusting.
Today I am on CD 33 and 13DPO. I only know this because I am charting for my naturopath. I charted for the first 2 years we were TTC and my luteal phase was 10-11 days. I'm excited to be at 13DPO. Either what the naturopath has me doing is actually helping things, or I'm pregnant!! HA! I don't even have pee sticks in the house as I refuse to waste my money anymore. For someone who has always been concerned about luteal phase length, it's exciting to get to 13DPO!
In a nutshell....
I've been reading a lot of blogs for the last few months, and I thought it would be a great way for me to try and keep track of things as they happen. I'm also hoping to lend support and meet a few lovely ladies along the way!
It's been 3 and a half years on this TTC and IVF rollercoaster. I wont go through all the details in my first post because it will take a week to get it all down!! And I don't want anyone falling asleep reading my blog (but apologies if you do!)
Started TTC in Jan 2005 when I was 28. Saw FS after 18 months of no pregnancy and went straight on to IVF. All of our tests came back normal so there is no known reason for us not falling pregnant.
First IVF cycle was in September 2006. In that cycle and the following FET cycle, I had a low hcg reading. I was convinced I was pregnant after the FET. Strong symptoms, double pink lines, but it was not to be. Two more stims and 2 more FET cycles followed, all with heartbreaking results.
The last FET was only 2 months ago. They had to thaw our remaining 3 frozen embryos to get one good one, but it didn't stick. So, now we're back to square one.
My FS sent me for a number of blood tests after that FET. Mostly related to immune system and blood clotting conditions. One of my blood clotting tests came back highly abnormal. Finally I thought we were getting some answers. Three specialist appointments later and more blood tests reveal that the lab made an error and there in fact was nothing wrong with me. A mistake?? 3 weeks of me thinking I was dying or had some terrible disease, and hundreds of dollars in appointments to find out that they made a mistake?!!! They tried to charge me for these tests would you believe. You can imagine what I had to say about that!!
So, we're still back to the beginning with no answers. I've been seeing a naturopath for a couple of months. Something else to do between IVF I guess. After all this time, I need to feel like I'm doing something. I can't just sit back and wait and hope that nature can take it's course.
I've just turned 32. I started this when I was 28 and I feel that time is a-tickin'! We always wanted a large family, and still can't believe we are having so much trouble having one baby. It's not meant to be like this.
It's been 3 and a half years on this TTC and IVF rollercoaster. I wont go through all the details in my first post because it will take a week to get it all down!! And I don't want anyone falling asleep reading my blog (but apologies if you do!)
Started TTC in Jan 2005 when I was 28. Saw FS after 18 months of no pregnancy and went straight on to IVF. All of our tests came back normal so there is no known reason for us not falling pregnant.
First IVF cycle was in September 2006. In that cycle and the following FET cycle, I had a low hcg reading. I was convinced I was pregnant after the FET. Strong symptoms, double pink lines, but it was not to be. Two more stims and 2 more FET cycles followed, all with heartbreaking results.
The last FET was only 2 months ago. They had to thaw our remaining 3 frozen embryos to get one good one, but it didn't stick. So, now we're back to square one.
My FS sent me for a number of blood tests after that FET. Mostly related to immune system and blood clotting conditions. One of my blood clotting tests came back highly abnormal. Finally I thought we were getting some answers. Three specialist appointments later and more blood tests reveal that the lab made an error and there in fact was nothing wrong with me. A mistake?? 3 weeks of me thinking I was dying or had some terrible disease, and hundreds of dollars in appointments to find out that they made a mistake?!!! They tried to charge me for these tests would you believe. You can imagine what I had to say about that!!
So, we're still back to the beginning with no answers. I've been seeing a naturopath for a couple of months. Something else to do between IVF I guess. After all this time, I need to feel like I'm doing something. I can't just sit back and wait and hope that nature can take it's course.
I've just turned 32. I started this when I was 28 and I feel that time is a-tickin'! We always wanted a large family, and still can't believe we are having so much trouble having one baby. It's not meant to be like this.
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